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[ Tuesday, April 25, 2006 ]
enough
That's it. I've finally decided not to continue with what im planning. My conscience cannot do so. I ain't happy with the setup. Need to handle what i feel. Thanks to Joshua Harris' line. "The right feeling at the wrong time is a wrong thing."
But then, i'm still here as a friend. Couldn't waste the friendship. sayang naman. Well anyways, been enjoying my single-blessedness. I preferred to be single at the moment and focus on work. (e kung sino ang gusto di pwde e!gulay!) Been meeting new people, been going to places ive never been.. Had a long drive last saturday morning.. Stargazing at the beach.. saw 3 falling stars and havent wished! goodness! ate a lot during the weekend..
Anyways, magmamala-Joe D mango na lang ako sa mga tao. At least maka2tulong pko.hehe..
--------------------------just want to share some pics from last weekend's adventure at Matabungkay (d mganda yung beach..tsktsk) Our La Union escapade was cancelled due to uncertain circumstances. How i wish matuloy din yun..Clockwise : bonfire -- ako yan at nagpipictorial! haha! -- me and marlee pacute muna b4 dinner -- me, marlee and tin at Leslie's Tagaytay! sarap ng bulalo! haha..   
Labels: chorva, travel
 Posted by Che @ 11:22 AM
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[ Tuesday, April 18, 2006 ]
half-life
Lines from the song HalfLife.. just what i feel.. just what i feel..before the truth goes back into hiding
I want to decide 'cause it's worth deciding
to work on finding something more than this fear
It takes so much out of me to pretend
tell me now, tell me how to make amends
maybe, I need to see the daylight
to leave behind this half-life
don't you see I'm breaking down
lately, something here don't feel right
this is just a half-life
is there really no escape?
no escape from time of any kind
I keep trying to understand this thing and that thing, my fellow man
I guess I'll let you know
when i figure it out but I don't mind a few mysteries
they can stay that way it's fine by meand you are another mystery i am missing
It takes so much out of me to pretend..
Labels: lyrics
Posted by Che @ 3:58 PM
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answer: F
ano ba problema mo?di ko alam kung napapraning ka lang o may tama ka na talaga e.. sa tingin mo? nagtataka lang ako.. baket parang sobrang apektado ka? cguro dahil..
A. hindi maganda ang usapan nyo sa araw na 'to. yung bang parang kulang at bitin.. Tapos mashado sya busy sa trabaho at ibang bagay.. na d ko alam kung kinaseselos mo o npapraning ka lang.
B. nagi-guilty ka. dahil sinabi nyang nagpapakabait na sya at feeling mo ikaw ang tukso sa buhay nya. At dahil jan parang gusto mo na bumitaw.
C. feeling mo parang lumalayo o iniiwasan ka nya kasi nga nagpapakabait na.
D. di mo alam kung masaya ka ba talaga. Ganto yan. Masaya ka naman talaga pagkausap o kasama mo sya. kaso dahil sa naiisip mo na di naman sya single e nagiguilty ka at nawawala ang saya mo.
E. All of the Above
F. Teka.. Baket mo pa kelangan sagutin to.. FRIENDS lang naman kayo diba?!!Labels: chorva
Posted by Che @ 9:14 AM
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[ Sunday, April 16, 2006 ]
where am i going?
Last Maundy Thursday was the first time I joined the Alay Lakad to Antipolo. I don't usually do that but since i promised myself and to the Lord last year that Im goin to do it I joined. It isn't bad.. On the way to antipolo i saw leaflets scattered on the road. The title struct me.. It says, San ka Patutungo?
Where am i going?
I suddenly recalled the song.. "do u know where you're going to.. do you like the things that life is showing you.. where are you hoping to.. do you know?"
Blast of whats happening in my life suddenly filled my head. The past, present and my future plans. Lately it was a big change of events, unexpected incidents which I personally don't anticipate or whatsoever happened. Fate perhaps? i don't know.
Career.. Been eyeing for Singapore this year. But it seems the time is not now. I don't really know yet. The first quarter just passed. My new work is fine. I got no complains but the schedule. Though I'm starting to get used to it.
Love.. I got no lovelife. For a year already. Thought I'll be forever locked up with someone from the past, but i was wrong. Met someone. I never thought she would be the special one for me. We used to chat before about work. But right now it's more than that. I have never been into this kind of situation for my entire life. Strange.. but not really. Complicated. I guess so. But for the mean time. For the mean time..
Family..They're fine. Thanks to God. I just hope someday they'll "really" understand and accept me. The real me with no pretensions or whatsoever. Though I know that they indeed started already. But I hope when the time comes that I let them meet the one for me, they'll just be happy and embrace us wholeheartedly..
God..am saving the best for last. I haven't left. I'm here facing the challenges and excitement He's offering. I love my life. He's gift. Because I know He's here for me. *Thank you Lord,. Thank you for saving us..
So where am i going?
Literally, I don't know.. Im just living my life to the fullest right now.. But i know where i would want to end this all up someday, to the Lord..
HAPPY EASTER TO EVERYONE!Labels: chorva, life, mushy
Posted by Che @ 10:50 AM
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[ Tuesday, April 11, 2006 ]
di ko po alam
i don't knowbut i wanna knowwhy am i herehow could this be
i don't knowbut i am happy you cameand you're the reasonfor this weird thing
i don't know
but you see you're takenthe thought somehow crashes meand i just hope you're free
i don't know
but i want to make you happy
to take away the hurt and pain
you've feeling lately
i don't know
but i got you on my mind
and honestly, in my heart as well
hay.. i just don't knowLabels: mushy, poem
Posted by Che @ 9:47 AM
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[ Friday, April 07, 2006 ]
tatay
kanina lang pinagsabihan na naman ako ng tatay ko.. syempre tungkol na naman sa kakaiba kong sked sa work. tama naman sya. kung di na kaya dapat ng umuwi tapos pahinga na sa bahay at balikan kinabukasan. ganun na nga ginagawa ko. d ko na uulitin yung 34 hrs na stay sa work. pero sa knya parang hindi pa din. alam ko naiinis pa din yun kasi kakaiba sked ko.
"pupunta ka ba ng La union?" tinanong ako. sabi ko, "yup punta ko". Wag daw ako magdala ng sasakyan. Mashadong malayo ang drive. sabi ko may papalit naman sakin magdrive mgsasalit-salitan kami. Actually 4 kami. Ayaw pa din pumayag. Ang dami na naman sinabi kesyo di na namin sila sinusunod.. D ko na naman nagustuhan pinagsasabi nya..
Pa,
Alam ko concern ka saken. Concern ka baka mapano ko. Concern ka sa kapakanan ko.. Pero sa nakikita ko takot ka. Takot ka na baka may mangyari saken o ano. Hello? Alam nyo naman kung pano ko magdrive. Iniintindi mo lang dahil malayo yun. Pero malamang kung kasama kayo e ako din ipapagdrive nyo. Takot ka baka may mangyari sa sasakyan. Sabi ko naman ipapakondisyon ko ang auto bago umalis. Saka nakapgdrive nako papuntang Tagaytay, Batangas, Laguna, Cavite at Bulacan. Alam ko mas malayo La Union pero heller. Ganun din yun. Di na ko batang paslit pa. Alam ko naman ginagawa ko. Alam kong fatherly instinct lang yan. Kaso minsan sobrang nakakainis na e. Parang ayaw nyo ko pakawalan. Wala kayong tiwala. Ayaw nyo ko maka experience at matuto sa mga bagay-bagay. Tulad ng sinabi ko knina.. i want to live my life to the fullest. I want to try things. Wala nman masama dun. Hayaan nyo ko matuto sa kung ano mang susubukan o pagdadaanan ko sa buhay. Kelan nyo pako papayagan? Pag magisa nko sa buhay? Kaya nga parati kong naiisip na mgsarili na e. mag 24 nako this year. my gulay! Lam ko bata pa yun para sayo e ewan ko pero mashadong conservative pananaw mo. Natutuwa ako sa concern dahil alam ko pagmamahal yun.. pero minsan sobra na e. Ayun.
* Sana mabasa mo to. Kaso di ka nga pla marunong mginternet o computer. goodness.. D bale, pag di mo pa din ako pinayagan e piprint ko na lng to. Labels: chorva, rants
Posted by Che @ 12:23 AM
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[ Thursday, April 06, 2006 ]
narda
Tila ibon kung lumipadSumabay sa hanginAkoy napatinginSa dalagang nababalot ng hiwaga...
Mapapansin kaya
Sa dami ng 'yong ginagawa
Kung kaagaw ko ang lahat
May pag asa bang makilala ka...
Awit na nananawagan
Baka sakaling napakikinggan
Pag ibig na palaisipan
Sa kanta na lang idaraan...
Nag-aabang sa langit..
Sa mga ulap sumisilip..
Sa likod ng mga tala..
Kahit sulyap lang darna....!!!
Ang swerte nga naman ni Ding
Lagi ka nyang kapiling
Kung ako sa kanya
Niligawan na kita...
Mapapansin kaya
Sa dami ng 'yong ginagawa
Kung kaagaw ko ang lahat
May pag asa bang makilala ka...
Awit na nananawagan
Baka sakaling napakikinggan
Pag ibig na palaisipan
Sa kanta na lang idaraan
Nag-aabang sa langit..
Sa mga ulap sumisilip..
Sa likod ng mga tala..
Kahit sulyap lang darna....!!!
Tumalon kaya ako sa bangin
Para lang iyong sagipin..
Ito ang tanging paraan
Para mayakap ka..
Darating kaya
Sa dami ng ginagawa
Kung kaagaw ko sila
Paano na kaya?..
Awit na nananawagan
Baka sakaling napakikinggan
Pag ibig na palaisipan
Sa kanta na lang idaraan...
Nag-aabang sa langit..
Sa mga ulap sumisilip..
Sa likod ng mga tala..
Kahit sulyap lang darna....!!!
Nag-aabang sa langit..
Sa mga ulap sumisilip..
Sa likod ng mga tala..
Kahit sulyap lang darna....!!!-----------Been singing this song wholeheartedly for the past few days.. =pLabels: lyrics
Posted by Che @ 2:21 AM
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suddenly
A thousand eyes looking at me But yours is the look that goes right through me and I Cannot Hide from your stare Should I let you in - do I dare Some other hands have tried before But yours is the touch that makes me want more and I Cannot hide the urgency To have you here lying with me because
Suddenly in my life
There's something that's got me mystified and I
Cannot fight it but I can try To keep the wonder of it alive
A thousand words have tried to say
But yours are the ones that'll never fade away and I
Cannot hide from their sound
I am mesmerized spinning round and round and
Some other hearts have tried to steal mine
But yours is the one that I now hold dear I'll do what it takes to keep you here
I'm a selfish fool and I have no fear
Suddenly in my life
There's something that's got me mystified and I
Cannot fight it but I can try To keep the wonder of it alive
A thousand times I've tried to stay Alone by pushing you away
Time after time and tear after tear I find myself back here with you
A thousand visions have come to me
Promising serenity
And as I struggle to find the source of this peace I always end up with your kiss
Suddenly in my life
There's something that's got me mystified and I
Cannot fight it but I can try
To keep the wonder of it alive
Suddenly in my life
There's something that's got me mystified and I
Cannot fight it but I can try
To keep the wonder of it alive------------wala lang. loved the song.. especially the first six lines.. ;) at eto pang song na to.. wapak! heheBREATHE..
I can feel the magic floating in the air
Being with you gets me that way
I watch the sunlight dance across your face and I've
Never been this swept away
All my thoughts just seem to settle on the breeze
When I'm lying wrapped up in your arms
The whole world just fades away
The only thing I hearIs the beating of your heart
'Cause I can feel you breathe
It's washing over me
Suddenly I'm melting into you
There's nothing left to prove
Baby all we need is just to be
Caught up in the touchThe slow and steady rush
Baby, isn't that the way that love's supposed to beI can feel you breatheJust breathe
In a way I know my heart is waking up
As all the walls come tumbling down
I'm closer than I've ever felt beforeAnd I knowAnd you know
There's no need for words right now
'Cause I can feel you breathe
It's washing over me
Suddenly I'm melting into you
There's nothing left to proveBaby all we need is just to be
Caught up in the touch
The slow and steady rush
Baby, isn't that the way that love's supposed to be
I can feel you breathe
Just breathe
Caught up in the touch
The slow and steady rush
Baby, isn't that the way that love's supposed to be
I can feel you breathe
Just breathe
I can feel the magic floating in the air
Being with you gets me that wayLabels: lyrics
Posted by Che @ 12:24 AM
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[ Saturday, April 01, 2006 ]
haaayyyyyyy
1st time kong pumasok ng bangag.. galing akong party.. oo nkainom ako. mga 2 bote lng sa pgka2tanda ko. pero nakikiinom pla ko sa iba. cge na mga 3 na nainom ko.. kya ko pa mgtrabaho,. kelangan e. konti lng naman ang sakit ng ulo. pero parang nawawala na nga..d ko mawari ang pakiramdam. ang saya ko nung una e.. nagkatabi kami.. hinihintay ko yun. gusto ko sya makasama, makausap at makatabi.. tawa dito tawa dun. d best tlga. d namin namalayan mgkahawak na mga kamay namin.. ang saya ko. ang saya saya.. d ko maexplain.. alam ko masaya ka din.. nararamdaman ko yun.. kakilig kung iisipin.. pero d nagtagal e. wala pa sa kalagitnaan ng gabi. d pa kami magkasama ng matagal.. dumating ang d inaasahan. ayos eto. 1st time ko sa ganitong sitwasyon. nagulo mundo ko. d ko alam irereact.. d ko alam ikikilos. salamat sa mga kaofficemates ko. d ko inaasahang mababait sila at naiintindihan nila ang nangyari.. ayoko na magisip.para sayo..sayo na nagbalik ng mga ngiti ko. sayo na bumuhay ng dugo ko. d mo alam gano mo ko pinasaya. kahit wlang usap-usap basta alam ko anjan ka lang ok nako. kumpleto na araw ko. alam ko kelan lang tyo naging close. alam ko di pa to yung tinatawag na love. pero alam ko at nararamaman ko na importante ka saken. Paulit-ulit ko ngang tinatanong kay Lord kung ano purpose ko sa buhay mo. at ano din purpose mo sa buhay ko. D ko alam. Parang sinagot nya ngayong gabi na to. Pero prang hindi pa din yun ang final answer. 2 linggo plang ang pinagsamahan naten sa ym at text. 2 araw sa galera na bihira lng din na nagkasama, isang gabi ng inuman nung Lunes at knina lang.. Sana di matapos dahil sa nangyari knina. D kita kinikibo kanina kasi d ko alam gagawin ko. Anjan kasi yung jowa mo. Eto ngayon nagtext ka at nagsosori. D agad ako makareply agad. organize ko muna utak at pkiramdam ko. Pero gusto kong malaman mo na walang problema yun. Nabigla lang ako. Dpat din ako mgsori coz ayoko din mag cause ng away sa nyong dalawa. Ayokong magaway kyo at ikaw na naman ang masaktan sa mga kung ano-anong sinasabi nya. D ko alam pero ayokong makita o malaman na nasasaktan ka. Gusto ko maging masaya ka palagi.PS. sana malaman nya ang halaga mo.. don't worry, d2 pa din ako. Labels: mushy
Posted by Che @ 3:27 AM
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